Excited!

I love to be excited. It's so much more fun than being placid about life. It may seem childish to jump up and down clapping my hands or shouting EEEEE! as an excited expression, but I like it. I share my joy and excitement because too often people just keep it to themselves. I'm excited to share happy news, I'm excited to see friends or family that I have been absent from. I am getting excited to spend my first Christmas with Russ -sure we have spent Christmases together for the last 4 years, but this is the first one with JUST us. We have our own place, our own (fake) christmas tree, we can plan to do whatever we want. We can invent new traditions, we can just be with each other!
Sure christmas and what it means to me has changed over the years, but one thing that stays the same: for me christmas is about family (and I love mine (most of the time) so it's not too bittersweet seeing them), it's about the love and support they give you and the love that you can return to them.
My mom really misses me, I can tell. my family was trying to work things out to come visit me this holiday season, but it's just too expensive for 4 people to fly, and who knows what the weather will be like for driving. So my parents are paying for me to come visit in January. It will be fun seeing them, and I'm happy that Russ wants to come (and is coming) too!
I like being happy -it's so much more fun than just wasting your life being sad/upset/indifferent. Sure it may seem childish or just girly to act so excited, but that's who I am.